আমার জীবন, সদা পাপে রত,
নাহিক পুণ্যের লেশ
পরেরে উদ্বেগ, দিয়াছি যে কত,
দিয়াছি জীবেরে ক্লেশ ১
āmāra jībana, sadā pāpe rata,
nāhika puṇyera leśa
parere udbega, diyāchi ye kata,
diyāchi jībere kleśa 1
āmāra — my; jībana — life; sadā — always; pāpe — to sin; rata — engaged in, devoted to; nāhika — there is not; puṇyera — of piety; leśa — trace, shadow, iota; parere — to others; udbega — anxiety; diyāchi — I have given; ye — which; kata — much; diyāchi — I have given; jībere — to living beings; kleśa — misery, trouble, pain, sorrow
My life is perpetually dedicated to sin; thus I am without a trace of piety. I have given others great anxiety and brought only misery to living beings.
নিজ সুখ লাগিঽ, পাপে নাহি ডরি,
দয়াহীন স্বার্থপর
পরসুখে দুঃখী, সদা মিথ্যাভাষী,
পরদুঃখ সুখকর ২
nija sukha lāgi’, pāpe nāhi ḍari,
dayāhīna sbārthapara
para-sukhe duḥkhī, sadā mithyābhāṣī,
paraduḥkha sukhakara 2
nija — own; sukha — pleasure, happiness; lāgi’ — for; pāpe — in sinning; nāhi — not; ḍari — I fear; dayāhīna — compassion + devoid; sbārthapara — selfish; para — others; sukhe — at the happiness; duḥkhī — sad; sadā — always; mithyābhāṣī — lying, untruthful; paraduḥkha — others + distress; sukhakara — happy + makes
For the sake of my own pleasure, I am not afraid to commit any sin. Devoid of all compassion and full of selfishness, I feel sorrow at the happiness of others. I am an inveterate liar, and the misery of others delights me.
অশেষ কামনা, হ্ড়্দি মাঝে মোর,
ক্রোধী দম্ভপরায়ণ
মদমত্ত সদা, বিষয়ে মোহিত,
হিংসাগর্ববিভূষণ ৩
aśeṣa kāmanā, hṛdi mājhe mora,
krodhī dambhaparāyaṇa
madamatta sadā, biṣaye mohita,
hiṁsā-garba-bibhūṣaṇa 3
aśeṣa — endless; kāmanā — desires; hṛdi — heart; mājhe — within; mora — my; krodhī — angry, hot-tempered; dambhaparāyaṇa — vanity, pride, arrogance, haughtiness + devoted to, addicted to; madamatta — vanity, pride, arrogance + mad, intoxicated; sadā — always; biṣaye — by enjoyment; mohita — bewhildered; hiṁsā — harming others, killing, malice, envy, jealousy; garba — egotism; bibhūṣaṇa — ornaments
There are unlimited material desires within my heart. I am full of anger and devoted to false pride. Indeed, I am always intoxicated by conceit and bewildered by mundane enjoyment. Envy and egotism are my ornaments.
নিদ্রালস্যহত, সুকার্যে বিরত,
অকার্যে উদ্যোগী আমি
প্রতিষ্ঠা লাগিয়া, শাঠ্য আচরণ,
লোভহত সদা কামী ৪
nidrālasya-hata, sukārye birata,
akārye udyogī āmi
pratiṣṭhā lāgiyā, śāṭhya ācaraṇa,
lobhahata sadā kāmī 4
nidrālasya — indolence, lethargy; hata — ruined, spoiled; sukārye — pious deeds; birata — desisting from; akārye — misdeed; udyogī — endeavoring, assiduous, ready for; āmi — I; pratiṣṭhā — (sammān) prestige (respect); lāgiyā — for the sake; śāṭhya — (vañcanā) duplicitous, dishonest (deception, deceit); ācaraṇa — behavior; lobhahata — greed + destroyed; sadā — always; kāmī — lustful, desirous
Plagued by indolence, I am disinclined to perform pious work, but I am enthusiastic to undertake forbidden deeds. For want of prestige, I behave most duplicitously. I have been destroyed by greed and am always filled with desire.
এ হেন দুর্জন, সজ্জনবর্জিত,
অপরাধী নিরন্তর
শুভকার্যশূন্য, সদানর্থমনা,
নানা দুঃখে জর জর ৫
e hena durjana, sajjana-barjita,
aparādhī nirantara
śubhakāryaśūnya, sadānarthamanā,
nānā duḥkhe jara jara 5
e — this; hena — such; durjana — miscreant; sajjana — saintly people; barjita — rejected; aparādhī — offender; nirantara — perpetual; śubhakāryaśūnya — good + deeds + devoid; sadānarthamanā — always + vice + devoted, attached; nānā — various; duḥkhe — by miseries; jara jara — very much oppressed or stricken with
Being such a miscreant and being rejected by saintly persons, I am a perpetual offender. Devoid of good deeds and habituated to vice, I am oppressed by various miseries.
বার্ধক্যে এখন, উপায়বিহীন,
তাঽতে দীন অকিঞ্চন
ভকতিবিনোদ, প্রভুর চরণে,
করে দুঃখ নিবেদন ৬
bārdhakye ekhana, upāyabihīna,
tā’te dīna akiñcana
bhakatibinoda, prabhura caraṇe,
kare duḥkha nibedana 6
bārdhakye — in old age; ekhana — now; upāyabihīna — remedy, a means to relieve or help + deprived, without; tā’te — by that; dīna — humbled; akiñcana — (saṅgati-śūnya) poor (without wealth, property); bhakatibinoda — Bhaktivinoda; prabhura — Lord’s; caraṇe — at feet; kare — makes; duḥkha — sorrow; nibedana — submission
Now, in old age, I am deprived of any remedy. Thus, the humbled and poor Bhaktivinoda submits his sorrows at the feet of the Lord.